When your not by myside and Im unable to grasp onto you, I feel sick.
An upset stomach, a migraine instantly comes and my breathing shortens.
I dont look up to anything thats not in MY reality, except the fact that Im madly INLOVE with you and can ONLY see blue skies, sun, and me in a white dress.

You fail to understand that without you I have no heartbeat.
Nothing to feel for.
You are my reasoning for becoming numb when alone.
Idk what to do without you in my life and it sucks how you carry my life at the tip of your finger.
And not keep in mind that IM THERE & YOU hold me.
you have me at the tip of a finger and can doldier me around.
How come Im the only one in this relationship who actually cares?
How come Im the only person in our relationship who feels and has the ability to cry.
Over any and everything.
Over the fact that you need tissue when there isnt none. lol
When its all said and done noone can ever love you like I can and I would compete with anyone who believes they can outstand me.

I never loved like I love now. Never felt like i feel now. Never seemed as if I HAD TO MAKE YOU A PRIORITY.
my responsibility.
myDUTY.

They say love is when you care for one like your family and will do and sacrafise just as much to that ONE like you'll do for family anything pass that is an obsession.

THEN CONSIDER ME OBSESSED!
I cant eat if you dont.
I can breath without you giving me permission.
I dont wanna leave without you...

so why cant we always get along?

IM DELUSIONAL?!
No, Im in Love and hates the fact that I AM.

IM IN LOVE WITH SOMEONE WHO DONT CARE FOR ME AS MUCH AS THEY THINK THEY DO.
IM IN LOVE WITH SOMEONE WHO CANT GIVE ME A COMPLIMENT, OTHER THEN SMACKING MY ASS AFTER SOME GOOD SEX.
I HATE WHEN WE ARGUE, BECAUSE I FEEL LIKE MY INTENTIONS IN OUR RELATIONSHIP ISNT ACCOMPLISHING.
I HATE WHEN YOU SCREAM, OH DO YOU EVER KNOW HOW MY HEART SKIPS AND I BECOME SO AFRAID.
WHY DO I JUMP WHEN YOU TELL ME TO.
WHY DO YOU PLAY A FATHER ROLE AND IM TOO SCARED TO SPEAK UP.
I CANT BE IN LOVE AND BE FRIGHTENED TO TALK.
I CANT DEAL WITH EVERYTHING WE GO THROUGH, BUT I TRY, I TRY AND I TRY EVEN JUST A LITTLE MORE.

when you call me out my name i swallow my heart and pride
when you embarrasse me infront of my family, I feel like I let myself go.
And Im not who I am.
Who they KNOW me as
who I BELIEVE AND KNOW who I am
I am the reason why we're still here
I am the reason why you do what you do to me, because i allow it.

i dont feel pretty at all.
i dont feel good.
i dont feel like my body is descent anymore
i dont feel me ANYMORE.

I hate to complain, but I dont have a bestfriend.
And the only one I do have you push her away.
im still here, because I LOVE YOU
not bc of what i felt before
not bc of what you CANT DO or can
but because i know that at the end of the trail I will receive all your love.
and that is all I need
thats all I want.