It's crazy

how you can love someone and yet be constantly interrogated. What's a relationship without trust? I look forward to waking up to this special someone and sometimes when I wake up, their not there. I rush off bed to see his face, to play it off like whatever. When asleep it feels great as well as waking up next to him. But majority of the time during the day I questioned myself to why I do this? I don't think this relationship is quite healthy for me. Clearly it isn't when I'm in deep thought of ending it all. How can something I dont have yet, change me? (Lol smh) If ending my social life will make him more than happy, I guess that's just something I'll put effort into doing. It might not be as easy as being said, but hey.....