Dear you

I use to pretend as if things we're always okay. Knowing truthfully at the ending of the tunnel, strangely it gets darker. I use to fear my surroundings along with words. Just growing up with my mother alone hurted. Luckily she met this extraordinary man who till this day I claim my stepfather. && they're not even together. The closest I have to a father. Although I've never met you, my father, not one person can replace you. It's just sad how before you've gotten the chance to witness my birth you sadly passed away. 2weeks before I was brought to this pathetic world. Mommy will always be here for me I kn ow that for a fact, because I'm a bit stabled now and I'm just moving on up little by little and she seems to have issues with letting me go. You are my right hand in everything I do. Cause I seem to not fall, I fail but not fall. When failure strucks I get better before I give up and I know thats you encouraging me. Wish I had something of you to keep with me forever. But, the best thing keeping close to me is your love from a distance. you're witnessing every health issue I been going through. I know your hoping for a grandchild. By the way, I'm 3days late. Mommy said it's nothing so far keep trying lol. But, my menstrual NEEEVVEER acts funny. Could this be hardwork paying off after years? Us thinking possibly infertility. Idk. I'm late and even though I'm not completely ready. I'LL be incredibily happy to know that Im able to concieve and I'll name him after you with much confidence and dignity.



you are my ego
you are my motivation
you are me
and I am you