i tried

I tried loving you, but
pimpin was my way of life.



Then I loved you and it seemed to not be enough
I created who you've become and I demolished who you used to be
& to try and take away my pride, because you seem to question my love
allll, because of whom ever it was; which I REALLY don't give a fuck about.
FUCKED up your state of mind.
YOU tempt to fuck up MINE and make my life miserable.



when all I ever wanted to do was look past everything and love you.
for who you was and most importantly who you've become and how you overcame those obstacles you thought you'd never outstand.






when your not near me at night- my body seem to quiver.
my train of thought encroachs with my insecurities then all negative things come to mind.
im capable of all possibilities and much more.
i don't believe in god, neither do I worship the devil.
though I think I believe in him.
but i'd say shit and won't look back on it, cause IDGF.
about ANYTHING and ANYONE.
ABSOLUTELY
but, I believe in you and most of all everything you.DO



damn.
it hurts how i can fuck the world at once
yet at the sametime love you.
smfh, to think the worst of me: when im with you 24/7